My baby Turned "5" and fell in "LOVE"

This past weekend was so relaxing and emotional at the same time. My baby turned "5', the last one to leave me all day :-(( I didn't think it would matter because she had already went to half day pre-k and was a pro. She made so many friends and even has a boyfriend now lol!! But, we'll get back to that one so as for going to school ALL day long, I think she'll be just fine, it's me that's going to need the therapy....she's me all over again. You know when your parents warn you that you'll get that kid that pays you back for everything you did to your parents well she's that child and even better she looks just like me doing it all over again to!!

As for the picture above this was her birthday party and I don't think I can ever get these kids to ever sit so still again. I was in so dumbfounded because the two little boys in the pictures are severely affected by Autism and ADHD. One is my son Jerry he the older one to the right then Charlie is the lil guy on the left next to my son of whom is my daughter's first boyfriend and the only attendee of her party...her choice!! Tell me she's not smart, she didn't want to have to share him with the other girls if she invited them!! LOL What can I say I teach them young....LOL!!

Thanks for Reading and I hope you enjoyed it,

Candi

Well, right now I feel like my life is a Nascar race and I'm in the race to the end. No one's going to wreck me because I'm on my way. I got everything I need to finish the race. This paper is my race so to speak and I have to keep pushing myself to win or I'll just give up and lose the race. It's a good thing I don't like to lose so as long as my paper is a race car we will win...I know this sound crazy but it works...plus I love me some Nascar!! Go JR!!! #88 all the way Baby!! Also, if anyone can help with how to track on microsoft windows that would be greatly appreciated!!
Thanks,
Candi

"WOW"

Well here it is Monday morning and I thought I would be writing about how stressed I would be over the awhful paper due tomorrow but that's cheese and rice compared to what's in my lap right now. My best friend, soul mate, lover, boy friend of five years just up and left Saturday without any warning. So I sat there confused for awhile, then I just started writing and didn't stop until I was done. (6 hrs 34 mins btw) AND this is all I got..... a post on facebook with a little explantation but that's about it after 5 years "WOW" I thought but again I got one hell of a paper out of this....Candi

I don't wanna grow up.....

Why does life have to be so hard the older you get? I just had a birthday and it seems that life is just getting harder, not easier. Is it just me? Sometimes I just want to be like my kids, just fall out and kicking, screaming on the floor like a maniac. Or just cry for no reason without someone asking what's wrong honey, why are you crying? For one day, I want to just act like a little needy kid, who can be held, cuddled, rocked, patted to sleep and loved unconditionally. Is this too much to ask? We do this for our children why doesn't anyone do that for us in return? I'm sad now.....sorry just a feeling and I had to write something, so I was truly honest for once in my life.
-Candi

Ty God for Outlines!

Today I find myself deep in thought about a million things, school, my paper, my assignment in my other class, my children and just good ole life in general. I think to myself how do I sort this all out? Well that's were a good piece of paper and pencil come in handy in life. I sat down with some coffee and began to write an outline on all the "stuff" in my head. Guess what? It's not just "stuff" anymore, I have it organized into a detailed outline which explains what each item is and the proper outcome for each item. So now all that "stuff" does not have me so overwhelmed that I can't even think of where I'm supposed to start each day.